Family.

bAby bLuRtz

1. i hate these past two days
2. work sucks
3. things don't seem to go right
4. i don't seem to get myself together
5. i fucking need a day off to chill

these past two days,things had been far then awesome. i used to love working. i look forward to everyday at work. i still do. but these two days made me feel like "oh fuck i need a rest". i still love my job though. but it's been everyone's off day. i mean, not a good day for us. but well,things can't be picture perfect all the time right?

i mean..

kakak had been in quite a moody mood these days. can't say i blame her. she got a lot to do. and we also had little to offer her help since we weren't trained to do a manager's job. we were trained to do our job. hence,why we can't help much.

then our inventory started making a few problems. and i won't say how. but.. go figure.. and there goes our reputation. we,when i say we i mean the 3 full timers have very,very,very good reputation with the bosses. and if they found out about this,we might not be respected anymore. and for me my reputation there is super important. why? coz i work fucking hard to earn and keep it. so,don't even try to smash it. i'll kill you for sure. i'm dead serious. if i work hard on something and you come and try to smash it,you'll be gone by the time you try to apologize.

but anyways..

i hope by tomorrow everything would be just fine.

i miss the old FAMILY theme we have there. and fighting with your family,not a good feeling eh? i know..

C A R R O T C O L A

If tomorrow never comes

bAby bLuRtz

Hi..
Can i have a word?
You realize,we may not see the person we love ever again right?
Okay i'm not scaring you. Don't cry just yet.
But..
I realize,if i never see my parents,my siblings,my adored friends,my dear ever again,i won't have the chance to tell them how much i love them. Expecially,mum. I love Mum so much. Yes we may not always agree with each other. But i love her. She's the exact person that i am now. The reason for me to go on even when the clouds are grey. My idol.

Then there's my siblings.
No matter how much they may make me sick,they are a breath of fresh air into my lungs. They're what makes my life fun. I love those damn people so much. They rock!

Friends...
Oh how could i ever forget you guys?
Throughout the years,i've learned to differenciate true friendship and fucking fake friends.
And those who sticks with me.
Who knows me clearly inside out.
Who told me off when i needed to be.
Who not only gives out compliments,but also mocking me at times.
You guys,
i can't never thank you enough.

Dear.
Oh gosh. Where did i go right? How could i get you?
you know you meant the world to me.
for every seconds passed, i love you even more.
i know. i may not be perfect.
but dear.
i love you.
you're my bestest friend.

for everyone i love
should there'll be no tomorrow.
i am telling you.
I LOVE YOU!!

PENAMPANG FUTSAL SUPPORTS EARTH HOUR

bAby bLuRtz

Penampang Futsal is happy to join and support EARTH HOUR.

28 March 2009
8.30pm-9.30pm

For that 1 hour. PLEASE. Switch off your lights. Show some love for our Earth.
It won't cost you much. In fact,it'll cause you less in electric bills. *wink.

Penampang Futsal proudly supports EARTH HOUR.

That one hour of darkness, could make our future brighter.
Please. Have some empathy.
SWITCH OFF THE DAMN LIGHTS.

I AM ERICA MATHESSHA.
I AM SUPPORTING EARTH HOUR.
AND I'M URGING YOU TO SUPPORT EARTH HOUR.

It's in our hands.

p/s I love you EARTH.

Less Lovey Dovey

bAby bLuRtz

no 1 will understand anyway.
it dun matter.
so why bother?
i rather talk about other things.

cinta can fade away if you don't appreciate tau?
kecik2 2 hal pn..
PAY ATTENTION

Lek ba..

bAby bLuRtz

bado pnya jran. menyanyi2 as if the world belongs to them. hello. past midnight od k..suda2 la mau jd kelab jiwang karat cna ah? buang karen ja. org mau tdo shit.

lg 1..
why izit so hard to do this??
since when has i become so annoying?
doy..
bguz sa diam2 ba kn..
duy..
lek ba..
suma org pn pnaz k..
i'm tryin 2 hav at least you 2 understand.
but nope.
i'm annoying you 2.
fine.
kita tgk ah sapa tahan.
when i dun giv a shit no more..

Talking About..

bAby bLuRtz

I'm a person who believes in giving people second chances. because i know even i need chances. and i need it more than once. because we can't expect anyone to be perfect at one try. so trying more than once is a way to achieve things we want.

but sometimes,
people misunderstood the chances that are given to them. they took it for granted. and some even use it as a opportunity to laze around. not till they are pointed with the pressure,then will they realize the consequences of not making the best of the chance that are given to them. these kind of people are the ones that annoys me a lot. being a person who believes second chances are a way to prove one's ability,i hate to know that one that is lucky enough to have one more shot at doing something better, can actually have the heart to ruin it. it makes me think twice about giving other people a second chance.

but then again,
knowing that you can have a second chance doesn't mean that you can do your job half-heartedly the first time. you must always make sure you carry your responsibilities well. even if it's your first try.

i may sound like a mother right now,but i just wanted to blog out my thoughts. and need i remind you,that this is my blog.

^^
kisses..
C A R R O T C O L A

An ending i didn't ask for..

bAby bLuRtz

how would you feel if you were the one standing at my place now? would you cry? would you be angry? would you wanna run away? would you wish things were different? i do. but things like this you just can't change. there are some that are meant to last forever while some can't never work out. i guess i just didn't see it happening to me. i knew it was coming,but i never know it could be so near. how could this happen? and for the dumbest decision? i don't know. this is a dilemma. my options are clear. i'll stay with the on i know always love and takes care of us. i can't choose someone i barely know. not with the decisions he make. i wish it didn't have to be like this,but things happen for a reason.

i just wish.
i don't have to deal with all these.

Can I have this dance?

bAby bLuRtz

QUIZZES..

SECTION 1 ]
1. HONESTLY WHAT COLOR IS YOUR SHIRT?
= itz white..y?

2. HONESTLY, WHATS ON YOUR MIND?
= Why am i answering this?

3. HONESTLY, WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW?
= On9 la obviosly?

4. HONESTLY,DO YOU LIKE BRITNEY SPEARS?
= what do u mean like? I LOVE HER. I'm ADDICTED 2 evrythin her.

6. HONESTLY, HAVE YOU DONE SOMETHING BAD TODAY?
= yea..i let sum1 reload me.N i x layan him.

7. HONESTLY, DO YOU WATCH DISNEY CHANNEL?
= sumtimez.it's better dulu.Miley's lame.

8. HONESTLY, WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON U TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
= Hm.Nobody.o wait.a customer 4rm work.

9. HONESTLY, ARE YOU JEALOUS OF SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
= hm.no.y shud i?

10. HONESTLY, WHAT MAKES YOU MAD MOST OF THE TIME?
= d irritating stuffs la..

11. HONESTLY, DO YOU BITE YOUR NAILS?
= haha..ya..dulu la.

13. HONESTLY, DO YOU WANT TO SEE SOMEONE THIS VERY MOMENT?
= JERALD PHILIP. I want 2 see him now. Because i miss him.

14. HONESTLY, DO YOU HAVE A DEEP DARK SECRET?
= yez. but it'z called a secret 4 a reason.haha..

15. HONESTLY, DO YOU HAVE A FRIEND THAT YOU REALLY DON’T LIKE?
= yez.yez.yez.

17. HONESTLY, DO YOU LIKE/LOVE ANYONE?
= yup. i love God. I love my family. My frenz. o..N my DEAR. Cyunx u all. Mmuahh.

18. HONESTLY, WOULD YOU KISS THE LAST PERSON YOU KISSED?
= yez. y shudn't i?he wil..haha..

20. HONESTLY, WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
= money? o wait. Milo.

[ SECTION TWO ]
1. HONESTLY, WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU GET MAD?
= i write. i shout. i tel my dear.

2. WHAT'S THE WORST THING YOU'VE DONE WHEN YOU WERE MAD?
= hm..i x ngat.lol

3. HONESTLY, WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
= when me n Dear had a fight last time.

4. EVER CRIED YOURSELF TO SLEEP?
= haha..ever..byk kli..plg truk on 2 Nov 08. y?adala..hahaha

5. DO CERTAIN SONGS MAKE YOU CRY?
= yea..

6. WHAT USUALLY MAKES YOU CRY?
= fights. Kna mrh.

7. Do YOU MISS YOUR EX'ES?
= haha.. no.. i miss my current boy.

[ SECTION THREE ]
1. IS THERE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW, THAT COULD DO SOMETHING TO MAKE YOU HAPPY?
= Yez.

2. WHO CAN MAKE YOU HAPPY?
= alot..Dear i guess..

3. HOW WAS YOUR V'DAY?
= besa ja..

[ SECTION 4 ]
1. WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR TODAY?
= work ja

2. WHAT'S THE LAST OR CURRENT BOOK YOUR READING?
= something borrowed by rachel gibson.

3. DO YOU HAVE ANY HOMEWORK?
= haha..xda..ambik ko..haha

4. A is FOR ?
= ayam.

5. WHAT ARE YOU CURRENTLY LISTENING?
= mumy bising2..

HONESTLY: WHO IS YOUR BOYFRIEND?

Astaga..Blik2 uda sa jwb..
MY BOYFREN IZ JERALD PHILIP. He's 19 diz year. He's currently at Labuan,Matriks. And I LOVE HIM..

Random.

-mY adik angkat. Fornitha Abigail


-that's my lil sis.


-my mAn. mY dear. My everything. MINE.

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bAby bLuRtz

Okay. Here's my day.

I woke up-7 o'clock. Even before my alarm goes off. Y? Coz i have to work morning shift today. I bath,went to eat with Dad. Oh wait. Before that,Dad gave me allowance for today. Why? Coz i want. Haha. Then we go donggongon before Dad sent me off to work. we ate at 818. Dad malas makan banyak so he ate some of my Mee Seafood. It was ok la. I drank Lemon Ice.
Then work.

At work.
I said hi to Fred. I thought Ema's working too. But rupanya it's her off day. So i checked the schedule. Teri's supposed to work but she didn't show up. I later found out from kak kitty that in the morning only 1 person is working inside. So. I said ok.

Then as usual. I did the stock inventory. I did the booking and all those works. Then. None. I sat around. I finished early ba. Kakak came. We talked. Then phone calls again. As usual. The calls never stop. Then i have to deal with some 'drama'. Customer and stuffs.

Then it's 5. I was supposed to do the stock closing and handover the information to Ericca and Mona who's working night shift.

Guess what? For the 1st time. FnB short RM3.40. OMG! where did the money go? I was at the reception most of the day. Geez. I tell Kak Kitty and she helped out. But still short. I felt like 'kurengz.There goes my rep." Luckily kak kitty know i won't kasi short money. So at 6 i went home.

I reached home.
My lil sis belum help me do the chores. Shit. She belum mandi pun. O gosh! I shouted at her for being irresponsible. I mean why did you on the laptop but ignored all the chores? I geram.

Then.
the usual.
Bath. Cuci kain. Spin kain. Jemur kain. Lipat kain. Eat.

Now.
I'm in front of my laptop.
Blogging about nothing.
But well,again,IT'Z MY BLOG.
Lol..

Boredom Baseball Match..LoL

bAby bLuRtz

Ok so i'm at home now. Yea and i feel so bored. Lame. Bored. It just doesn't adds up.
At times like this i just miss school. Oh wait,not school. Merely the people there. Some of them anyway. Some are just cruel,ugly,dumb and no-life,low lifes. Oh well i sound like Edward Cullen. Aww. I'm dropping. He's hot. Ok it's all Poro's fault for making me learn all those terms like *droops,*drools,*roll eyes and etc.She uses it all the time. Gosh. Oh btw,she's my favourite and best adik angkat. She's fun to be around. LoL.

Last night after the uncomfortable event that occured and i still don't wanna talk about it,my dad came out of the room suddenly to have a drink. He was like "go to sleep.It's late." It is. It was 2am. HaHa. I wanted to stay and blog but daddy won't let it go. He sat there until i actually off my laptop and went to bed. Geez,Dad. Way to go. Yeah you. *rolls eyes

But i was still not asleep in the room. I was sms-ing and nightdreaming coz i can't sleep. And i can't on the light and start writing craps either coz my lil sis was sleeping and if i on the light,BOOM! world war 3. so..I decided to just lay down and wait for myself to doze off. And the uncomfortable event kept playing through my mind and i kept pushing it away so i won't throw up or feel sorry. That's me,i feel sorry easily and always think about should i help or not. ANd so on and so on. Me and my imagination. My dear always say i'm kinda 'budak-budakish',but i don't know where i got it from. Yer..

Anyway,while having a imaginary fight with the 'event',my Dear called me. See. One of the things i love about him includes how he always calls me up when i'm not expecting it. And for what? He just wanted to say he missed me and he wants to hear my voice. Aww. Love you dear. So we talked and mocked each other,that's just what we do. Since i'm still 17,he always 'ejek' me for being young. He's only 19 but yea he thinks he's all that. Haha. No bah. But yea he keeps mocking me coz in a way.i am kinda 'budak-budakish' around him. He kasi manja me so what do you expect? Lol. Corny,i know. But well,my blog. So,go figure. LoL. Such a meanie. Anyway we talked and i asked him to go to bed since he got class the next day. He's in Matrix Labuan. So he did. Only after goofing around with me again. Then the usual "i love you" etc. And off he went to sleep. While my eyes is still wide open.

And minutes later,i dozed off.

Woke up at 6 when my mum reminded me to do the chores earlier coz we have to go to church tonight. I mumbled 'uh huh' and went back to sleep. Then at 8 daddy woke me up,just to ask if i'm going anywhere and tell me he's going already. I know dad. HaHa. Then because of the late night,i fell asleep again and woke up at 10 something. I went to dad's room to watch tv. Coz i like to lie down there. HaHa.

Then the usual..
Bath.
Eat.
Tv.
Then,blank. What to do? Hmm. I decided to go online. For no reason. But since i'm bored. So i did.
Here i am. Blogging. YM-ing. But still,bored. But it's just so i can kill time.

I'm still bored. Well. Let's see if i can find something to inspire me to blog later ok? For now, I'm out.