Campus Life As I Say it

bAby bLuRtz

Good day every1. o gosh. finally able to on9. so long didn't get to. WiFi can't reach our room. And it's like on the 5th floor ok. i don't get it either.

anyway.
i've been living campus life for like 2 weeks now. i gotta be honest. i've always wanted to live this life. and i mean,always. and now,i'm living it. HaHa.
it's a wee bit different. like,it's not like when i was in high school where i can laze around and stuff. Here, i must pay attention. i mean, it's like a D.I.Y process. u snooze u lose. 1 semester is only like 3-4 months. so,yea. and we have exams every semester. darn.

the best thing though.
u have a free life. u can go out,but be home before curfew. hm. can be a life that u dread or love. something like that. i can't explain. well since assignments hasn't been given out yet,so i still have a lot of time for me. I don't know if it's the same when assignment start though. I doubt it.

anyway.
wish me luck.

ttfn
eLLE

Ku Hidup Dgn Siapa?

bAby bLuRtz

long time no bloggie. i missed u.
anyway,don't be suprise by the title. i know it's so 'keBMan' but yea i don't really know what to describe of this post.

so anyway. i've been with this guy quite a long time now.it's been what?a year and almost 2 months?yea i know that it's not necessarily gonna be like a happy ending and stuff,and i'm not putting much hope on it.but i guess i could at least appreciate it while it lasts.

this past few days, or shall i say weeks,we have been going through quite a few rough times. and usually it's about the same damn thing. u know i'm not the needy type. i might be. but i won't say that i'm that much needy.i can give time but,hell sometimes,i just miss him a lot.but he's just into the games.i'm like 'helloooo??your girl's here?'.but when i talked to him about this,we'll usually fight.and i hate that. i hate it. the last time we talked about this,i broke up with him.but then we got back together within hours.i mean,i love him.it's hard to let go.not when i really love this feeling.but,it's hard to stay on either.because it's just gonna be the same thing again.

he said it once that day,that when we broke up and make up again it seems a bit meaningless. God knows how that sentence hurt me. deeply. what is he saying? that i'm being stupid for trying to give it a go again? that we don't deserve to be together again? that i'm boring him with making up? that,i'm...ugh i just don't know. i'm sorta sick of thinking about it too.

i never ask why did he say so. or what did he meant when he said those words. i guess i just didn't want to know. i do. but i'm not sure i'm ready for the answer. but, next time when i say break up,or when he wants it,i'm not gonna want to make up again. i think i'm just gonna embarrase myself if i keep saying yes to making up after breaking up. i'm not needy as i said before,so i won't. don't worry my dear. next time it's for real. so make it worth it.

i love him. alot. but. things change. they will. we may find ourselves feeling different afterwards.
but i do. i love you. more than u'll ever know.

UiTM here Elle comes

bAby bLuRtz

hello sunshines..
lol.
it's been a while since i blog. well nothing really inspired me. lol.
anyway, i'm accepted into UiTM for my Diploma In Tourism. so,YEAH! i'm so excited to go. this is what i wanted all along. like ever since i know what universities are. lol.

so i can't wait...

BAD NEWS.
i lost my beloved chihuahua-POLY. she was my bestfriend. i mean this is my first real pet,as in real pet like i really do care alot about. and suddenly,she went MIA. i thought she would come back. but she didn't. that's why i'm so bumped right now. i want it back. BADLY!

anyway,
to the person who took my baby away from me,
i'm telling u.
U'LL REGRET IT!
damn u..
assole!
POLY,i missed u..alot..

DON'T

bAby bLuRtz

dear bloggie..
i love him. everyone knows that. this is not meant to hurt him. it is merely a fling. i promised you,he's the one who really has my heart. if you want me to choose between them,it is him i choose. No matter what. i am always in love with him. he is my dear. my first true love. my jerald. but this fling is merely an entertainment. please don't punish me by taking him away from me. i love him.

i love you my dear. i am a part of EJ.

ALWAYS.

cola

bAby bLuRtz

It's our 1 year anni. i remember. u too. but.. lol..

these past 1 year of being with you..

it has been filled with emotions. whether it's happy. sad. anger. jealousy... all those,in 1 year,i know how it taste like.

it has beed quite a roller coaster ride. and to be honest, i kinda like this roller coaster ride. even if there are times i felt like i couldn't go on, i still do. because i know i can't just let go. you're something to me. something that brings many meanings. though you might not always be perfect, and i know you are capable of hurting me and loving me at the same time, i still choose you. because i love you.

1 year for a girl like me, is a long time. and you know very well of that fact. i can't explain what is it that makes me stay with you, even when the clouds are grey. but you are different in your own ways. to tell you i love you,that's the easier part.

my dear..
i love you.

HAPPY 1st Year Anni.

LoL

bAby bLuRtz

Miss me??

LoL..me too. haven't got the time to blog so much. been rather busy and also feels like lazy to blog. lol. but blog,i love you still.

anyways..
i never blog about my anxiety while waiting for my SPM results right? Why? Don't ask. i don't know why either. but well, as you know, results came out some few weeks ago, and i couldn't believe it either, but i excel in my SPM. trust me. no words can describe how i felt when i got the slip from my teacher. i was a lazy pig in high school, and often did things that may actually cause God to punish me.(but i won't tell.) but then, i got 5As,2Bs,3Cs. and i was only expecting to get 3As. but 5As was my original goal. so in a way, i'm like "whoa!". i made my family proud. and made myself proud too. although maybe if i wasn't lazy, i could get more. but let's be thankful for what we got right? so THANK YOU GOD!

for anyone who's taking major exams..
trust me. if you study hard,oh wait,study smart,you'll get flying colours. if you don't,you'll waste your parents' money. and risk dissapointing yourself and your family. and that, i tell you, is a SUPERMASSIVE BAD FEELING. okay i don't know if that fits, but well.. so don't make a stupid decision k?

LUCKS!

c a r r o t c o l a l o v e s t o r y

Family.

bAby bLuRtz

1. i hate these past two days
2. work sucks
3. things don't seem to go right
4. i don't seem to get myself together
5. i fucking need a day off to chill

these past two days,things had been far then awesome. i used to love working. i look forward to everyday at work. i still do. but these two days made me feel like "oh fuck i need a rest". i still love my job though. but it's been everyone's off day. i mean, not a good day for us. but well,things can't be picture perfect all the time right?

i mean..

kakak had been in quite a moody mood these days. can't say i blame her. she got a lot to do. and we also had little to offer her help since we weren't trained to do a manager's job. we were trained to do our job. hence,why we can't help much.

then our inventory started making a few problems. and i won't say how. but.. go figure.. and there goes our reputation. we,when i say we i mean the 3 full timers have very,very,very good reputation with the bosses. and if they found out about this,we might not be respected anymore. and for me my reputation there is super important. why? coz i work fucking hard to earn and keep it. so,don't even try to smash it. i'll kill you for sure. i'm dead serious. if i work hard on something and you come and try to smash it,you'll be gone by the time you try to apologize.

but anyways..

i hope by tomorrow everything would be just fine.

i miss the old FAMILY theme we have there. and fighting with your family,not a good feeling eh? i know..

C A R R O T C O L A

If tomorrow never comes

bAby bLuRtz

Hi..
Can i have a word?
You realize,we may not see the person we love ever again right?
Okay i'm not scaring you. Don't cry just yet.
But..
I realize,if i never see my parents,my siblings,my adored friends,my dear ever again,i won't have the chance to tell them how much i love them. Expecially,mum. I love Mum so much. Yes we may not always agree with each other. But i love her. She's the exact person that i am now. The reason for me to go on even when the clouds are grey. My idol.

Then there's my siblings.
No matter how much they may make me sick,they are a breath of fresh air into my lungs. They're what makes my life fun. I love those damn people so much. They rock!

Friends...
Oh how could i ever forget you guys?
Throughout the years,i've learned to differenciate true friendship and fucking fake friends.
And those who sticks with me.
Who knows me clearly inside out.
Who told me off when i needed to be.
Who not only gives out compliments,but also mocking me at times.
You guys,
i can't never thank you enough.

Dear.
Oh gosh. Where did i go right? How could i get you?
you know you meant the world to me.
for every seconds passed, i love you even more.
i know. i may not be perfect.
but dear.
i love you.
you're my bestest friend.

for everyone i love
should there'll be no tomorrow.
i am telling you.
I LOVE YOU!!

PENAMPANG FUTSAL SUPPORTS EARTH HOUR

bAby bLuRtz

Penampang Futsal is happy to join and support EARTH HOUR.

28 March 2009
8.30pm-9.30pm

For that 1 hour. PLEASE. Switch off your lights. Show some love for our Earth.
It won't cost you much. In fact,it'll cause you less in electric bills. *wink.

Penampang Futsal proudly supports EARTH HOUR.

That one hour of darkness, could make our future brighter.
Please. Have some empathy.
SWITCH OFF THE DAMN LIGHTS.

I AM ERICA MATHESSHA.
I AM SUPPORTING EARTH HOUR.
AND I'M URGING YOU TO SUPPORT EARTH HOUR.

It's in our hands.

p/s I love you EARTH.

Less Lovey Dovey

bAby bLuRtz

no 1 will understand anyway.
it dun matter.
so why bother?
i rather talk about other things.

cinta can fade away if you don't appreciate tau?
kecik2 2 hal pn..
PAY ATTENTION

Lek ba..

bAby bLuRtz

bado pnya jran. menyanyi2 as if the world belongs to them. hello. past midnight od k..suda2 la mau jd kelab jiwang karat cna ah? buang karen ja. org mau tdo shit.

lg 1..
why izit so hard to do this??
since when has i become so annoying?
doy..
bguz sa diam2 ba kn..
duy..
lek ba..
suma org pn pnaz k..
i'm tryin 2 hav at least you 2 understand.
but nope.
i'm annoying you 2.
fine.
kita tgk ah sapa tahan.
when i dun giv a shit no more..